Monday, March 28, 2011
How low can you go??????????
I discovered something recently. I cannot, within the boundaries of the law of society or kharma, fix everything that is hurtful or just wrong. I thought I was a powerful, strong minded, capable adult human female who could withstand just about anything that normal living conditions throw at you...no, I know I am that. I love my family, I am relatively social except for the few instances of scaring naughty neighbor kids and old whiney men in line at Walmart. I have a sadistic streak when it comes to peole who role over and play underdog in an argument and I hate, yes I used the h word my soon to be ex son in law. You all know him under the assumed name of Paper bag boy.
My empathic tendencies have opened up, filled me up by swallowing everyone else pain and loss lately and I am left with a crap load of heavy lifting and it isn't even all my own. I have taken on negativity from many sources. Some out of love and concern for friends, some from the hellacious events in the world and then some because of this hate I have for this loser sub human who continues to jack with my grandkids and daughter. The above was the very first monies he sent to them in the 19 months they have been here and it BOUNCED. Nice work PBB.
I am not beat down by this dead beat. In fact after a wonderful letter from a caring and loving friend (Hi Cee), I now realize, I am okay and will not waste one more moments tears on my girl. She too is a strong, kick the loser to the curb kinda girl and the PBB has flown his flag long enough in front of his children's eyes that they too know what a loser and liar he is. We will all get along quite nicely.
So this is what I said before my attitude adjustment: I need an intervention, or hit man. If you think you can help....call 1800dumbshit. ooops I'm sorry that's his number. Dial I want him gone.
What I say now is: Darren who?
Thank you Cee for pointing out what a crustie olde bagg I am and how I can do what needs to be done. And I am going to take you up on your offer of magickal help.