Yesterday I had an appointment with a healer. A Cuandera. A Bruja. I was very excited to have at least found someone who practices herbal magic and had sight into medical issues. Of course I was also guarded.
You know that I have been struggling with my sidekick Fibro for a very long time. The last doctors were insistent that I take anti epilepsy meds (mind fucking drugs) much like Lexapro or Celexa that I had taken for depression. It took me forever to get off of that crazy ride. The taking of the drugs is one thing but even worse is the getting off of them. Some are as awful as getting of of heroin or cocaine. And the last doctor not only insisted on the medication he upped the dosage for me to start on so that I could get an instant fix. In other words I would be "out of it" from the get go. I refused and he promptly said he couldn't do anything more for me. I asked about a referral to a pain clinic and he said no, that I probably wouldn't do that either so he wasn't going to waste his time. Fine by me. It was the icing on the cake for me and I need to be thankful because, it caused me to take my inaction and put it into finding a possible fix for me.
My whole personality changed about 9 years ago. It was because of a memory that I had stuffed and hadn't let see the light of day since I was a child. Then when my grands and Shelley moved to SC, I once again had a loss. Now, one would have thought that 5 years ago when they came back here to live with us that the loss would have turned to a gain, but instead I have continued to ride the train to doing nothing, feeling nothing except pain and total inaction when it comes to feeling better. My bad and completely my own doing. Every once in awhile I would perk up and find something that really interested me but even though I have done lots with and for the grands, Linda was nowhere to be found in all of it.
I asked my friend Steve the Chiropractor if he knew of a traditional Cuandera and of course he did. That is how I came to be with Bernadette yesterday. She only lives 5 blocks from my house.
I walked in, sensed her openness immediately and we started on my road to me being me again. You know it is one thing to take herbs yourself based on books or friends ideas but it is another to have someone who took a complete history on my emotional self, physical self and spiritual self and then let that guide her and her spirits to a beginning for me. I am excited. I feel confident. I am in a relationship with this healer now and she/I will work together to get me to the place where I can be the best me, I can. Safe, in control and attended to.
I do need to ask that if you feel you can, would you send some healing energy my way? I am going to collect it like a magnet and use it to help me when my energy reserves are tapped out. Bernadette and I have a lot of work to do. Then I have much more to do one my own so that is why I ask you my lovelies for your love and support.
I'm looking forward to getting back to being the ball buster I used to be, not the simpering olde broad that I have become. I don't mind being old as a matter of fact I am proud that I have had the opportunity to get here, I just want to be happy and healthy and have a couple of pain free days to rub together while I still have those days as my own.
I will keep you up to date on my progress and also I will share with you the herbals and how I am using them.
With hope in my heart, Oma Linda
The first herbal tincture I am using is Break-Stone, Chanca Piedra is a “premier” herb in the therapeutic herbal tradition of Peru, where knowledge of rainforest remedies spread to Andean civilizations, including the Incas. It is believed to break up and expel both kidney stones, and gall stones, to help stimulate the production of bile and to promote healthy liver and gall bladder function. It is also traditionally used to clear obstructions throughout the various internal organs of the body by promoting the elimination of mucous, phlegm and stones.