Alrighty then..........how 'bout you?
How's things? How's tricks? How ya doin'?
I am fabulous going on obnoxious, thanks for askin'. And quite frankly it scares the bean juice right out of me. Not so you would notice (haha) I ride on a roller coaster of emotion, mood, impulse, mania, whatever you want to label it. And right now, I'm good to go.
I have; autumn being here, the rain having washed away my blues, a new "old" book I am reading and being the black dog or watch beetle to someone else's life to thank for the upswing in my feelings.
All these years of suffering from depression has left me with an arsenal of excuses and reasons why I suffer so. It also has armed me for battling windmills, bogies and things that go bump in the night. If you don't have depression then Halledamnlujah for you and I mean that sincerely. I am always thrilled to meet someone who is level without medication. Actually shocked would be more like it but happy for them not the less. I gave up on medication about 5 years ago and have ridden the up and down train ever since with frequent stops at the "out of the way" (time outs) stations so that I could handle life and not be arrested for murder.
All of this is really coming to a point, I promise. And here it is.........I do understand that these ups and downs are lessons for this Olde Bagg. I have learned some really hard ones about myself but until recently, I always beat myself up for not being able to "correct" my own behavior to suit the world, the society, people on the edges of my life. And let's face it, you know I am a crusty old broad with character flaws like every one else. I can honestly and whole heartedly say, I know I will ride a downward train again because that is the nature of the beast, but I will not belittle myself in the process. I have new crazy mad skills, new ways of viewing the world and better equipment to hold fast on the tow rope.
But I just needed to let you know......right now I'm okay. How 'bout you?