You sweet things have read your way through so much of my muck and mire. And also that of the grands and their awful trials at the hands of evil people in a place far, far away and to them another lifetime ago.
I've told you about our counseling, our hurts, our rants, our pain....now I want to share some sunshine with you. I know, it's about time, huh.
The focus for me for over a year has been the close proximity of RyLeigh's pain and my own. His counselor and the role playing that caused me such consternation. I just hated that every week he was, in a manner of speaking, reliving the abuse or at least the tone of the abuse. It used to take all week long just to get him back to a place where he was approaching "normal" again. And then circumstances took him out of counseling every week, vacations for the therapist, school things he couldn't miss, etc. And guess what? I had a real boy on my hands. He had time to get away from thinking about what had happened to him and he started living a real life.
The same thing for GK. She missed some sessions and there is a perceivable calm, well as much as kids give you, that has descended upon their lives. They are much more comfortable in their skin. Ergo.....me too.
SM and I were talking this morning and I told him it was my day to post something for the abuse/survivor group but I had nothing that I could draw upon because the pain isn't "available" anymore. Sucks to be me huh. I really would have to go to the bottom of the well and dredge it to pull something up and discuss it. And at this point, as much as I am dedicted to trying to help others who are in pain, I can't join in that pain.
So here's the good news. It happened. I have arrived on the other side of the road. I have kicked the stupid, evil to the curb and it is, for the time being because I am a realist, behind me, us.
We're in a really good place, having a really good time and so we are not even gonna wave at trouble, hurt or pain. Cuz we just kicked it to the curb.
Don't forget to join us in our fun at Olde Baggs and get a chance to win the Witchy Hat I made for you my dears. Tah....