My posting yesterday was to let you all know that we have had a break through with Ry.
I was not trying to call attention to my "story" only using it as an illustration. I am quite content with where I am in my recovery. My abuser is dead and gone and so are the ugly feelings that I used to carry around inside of me.
In the scheme of things, my grandson's recovery is all I can focus upon. Hard for him but worth it because he will not suffer into adulthood without knowledge. Ry has many other difficulties but everyday he is coming closer and closer to finding control for his young life. Our goal this summer is to help him not to be afraid....of bugs, of loud noises, of hands, of looks, of unseen enemies. He is so bright, talented and has a kick ass sense of humor. He can focus so much easier on tasks and is thrilled with his own accomplisments. He is certainly finding his place in this very complicated world.....albeit sheltered right now. He even has developed a bit of a swagger. Too funny and warm and wonderful. Protected and encouraged.
Love people, unconditional, uncomplicated, unfettered love.....thanks lovelies, you da bestest.